If I could give you a picture of a godly woman, my grandmother, Dot-Dot as we call her, would top the list.
A few days ago she breathed her last and her body is now empty.
She is not there.
She was what everyone would call “a good person”, but her
righteousness was not her own, she trusted Christ’s righteousness alone to save
her from her sins. According to the Lord’s mercy He saved her, not by her good
works but by the new birth of the Holy Spirit (cf. Titus 3:5). My Dot Dot didn’t
just say she had this faith, she evidenced this faith in how she lived and
loved and served the Lord to the end. Thus we can have hope that while her body
was left behind, she is now present with the Lord (2 Cor 5:6).
She strove to become more like Christ. She was not a foreign
missionary or a great speaker. She did nothing that people would consider really
great. But Horatius Bonar once said that holiness is not measured by “one great
heroic act or mighty martyrdom… It is of small things that a great life is made
up.”
Dot-Dot was very loving and generous to her grandchildren. She
spent time with us, let us granddaughters play with her Madam Alexander doll
collection. She and Papa gave us cards and presents for birthday’s and many times paid
for music camp and family camp. She was such a great listener and always
interested in what was going on in our lives. Even 2 weeks before she died, she
asked me to tell her about a trip I had just gone on. When I was away (whether
it was just summer camp, or when I was living out of state or oversees) she sent
cards and letters sharing things that were going on at home and most of all
telling me that she loved and prayed for me. Her deepest desire and prayer was that her family members all
come to know and love the Savior too. Speaking of prayer, anyone who knew her
well knew that she was a prayer warrior. I remember her telling me a few years
ago, that she couldn’t do much of anything, but she could still pray. One
precious memory of her and my Papa was often going into their apartment and
hearing Dot Dot reading the Bible aloud. She wrote me in a letter once that she was so glad that she and I loved and followed this same Book!
She had a good life with many joys, but yet hardships, loss, and many trials, too many to even try to mention here. But I never heard her complain. She always turned her eyes to the Lord and trusted Him no matter what! She was so very
unselfish! One thing she said towards the end was “I’m so much trouble”! She
hated to cause anyone inconvenience. But she graciously accepted the help she needed and was always thankful. Even to towards the end when she couldn't say much. She'd weakly ask for "water" and still say "thank you" afterwards!
There are a few "heroic" stories too though. She and my Papa
smuggled Bibles into China.
And not just a few tucked between things, mind you… a whole suitcase full! She
was on the Gideon Auxiliary and was very faithful to give Bibles out to people
she met. Every nurse, aid, etc. that ever saw her should have gotten one! She
loved the Lord, He had saved her from her sin and she wanted everyone else to
be forgiven too! I trust there will be many more in heaven partly because of those Bible's she gave out.
She used to call me her “dimple darling” when I was young.
In the last few years whenever I would come in to see her she would say “Hi
sweetie!” - I will miss that. About a week before she died she opened her
eyes and said this for the last time. It was so hard the last few months, especially the last week
and a half… knowing she was dying and sitting by her bedside wondering if each
breath would be her last. Her words during that time centered around how much
she just wanted to go be with Jesus and a few days before she died she
managed to say “Come… let... us... adore Him”. I obliged her by singing the chorus. She often groaned saying "Jesus!", and I saw in her a literal picture of the Spirit groaning for the coming of the Lord. She has lived with us in an attached
apartment for almost my entire life and home will never be the same without her
living there, and that’s part of the sadness that death brings. But I have SO
much joy in knowing that she is now truly free and with the Savior she loves. No more groaning Dot Dot... you're finally home!
I thank the Lord for the gift of my
grandmother, for His work of grace in her heart and life and the legacy I have
as a result. I am so very thankful for the example of prayer and faithfulness. While I will miss her much and cry a lot in the days to come, she will continue to inspire me for the rest of my life as I seek to follow the same Lord and Savior
she loves so dearly.
Much love dear Grannie Dot,
- Your 'sweet dimple darling'
(photo from Christmas 2011)
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